STREET BEATZ

GRAND FINAL

Date: 9th August 2008 (Saturday)

Time: 6pm-10pm

Venue: UTAR PJ CAMPUS ( FICT PD011 )

We will be joining this competition along with Chun Ming and Taz from Kampar campus. Hopefully we are able to pass the showcase round and go to the battle. I have to admit my performance at the last competition was pathetic. I’m not gonna give any excuse this time, guess i’ve been fooling around too much instead of practicing.

Been busy doing assingments and studying for exam lately and what’s worst? Instead of spending time bboying i go DOTA !! Sad… But It’s a better way to release stress and it’s less tiring IMO.

(ps: Still got practice la but seldom.)

Pornography.

Ask yourself this very simple question: As a person, is pornography in it’s purest element, right or wrong?

The answer is it is wrong and if you think otherwise you can come to me and kiss my ass. While people can individually justify it in various ways and perhaps twist it into a senseless joke, in the end when you are in the room alone, can you honestly say that it is right? It is obscene and unnatural, a disgrace to basic values and ultimately just plain immoral. Has morality lost it’s meaning?

I remember the Spartans once said that the concept of video games is the same. It is bad blah blah, but think about it, pornography is at a totally different level, it’s like comparing stealing and killing. Sure both can be bad but they are both totally different things. And if you still want to argue about this, then I’ll state that assuming both are wrong, then we still reach a consensus that pornography is wrong. Take that biatch, I never said I’m a good guy, I’m just trying my best.

I remember them saying that it is for entertainment. Which leads to this:

I have never touched porn until a few weeks ago out of curiosity, I closed it halfway and I probably wouldn’t touch it any time soon. I am no saint but there’s actually a very simple yet cynical explanation to this.

I can’t watch pornography simply because I can’t enjoy it and also because there’s always something better to do. I was raised to (believe?), (know?) that it is not right. Perhaps I would if I could face the screen without a loud nag at the back of my head.

Then again, let’s put it this way: Let’s say that there’s no right or wrong about pornography. It just is. It is something that exists. -End-

In this case, I’m the biggest fool. Pornography is supposed to be entertaining but I can’t take it because I’ve been taught to feel guilty about it. Perhaps this is the case and I’m a fool living in my own ideal world.

I really wonder, do people really think that pornography is right?

We’ve been taught the bandwagon effect, it basically means – people follow the crowd. It used to be that the crowd thinks that pornography is wrong, but I realised that it’s changed so much that not only is it assumed that all males watch porn, it is also made out that not watching it is weird.

Everyone has their own stand on this I guess…. but one thing’s for sure, while I now truly have nothing against pornography-watching, I mean I actually have no right to criticize it since I’m a sinner, yet I still won’t watch it. Once again I’ll say, I’m no saint, but rather it’s just that as an individual I believe that when it comes down to yes or no, I prefer no just as another would prefer yes. Also it’s a past time that I have no interest in. Whether or not I’m just the product of conventional teachings or maybe I’m just plain naive in the modern world, I find it a waste of time, just as you would say playing DotA is a waste of time.

No more no less.

And I always wondered…. even I can twist it around and say, I’m a man trapped in a forgotten culture.

Vary

There liv’d a time of diluted understanding,
of true smiles but false endings.
Where I stood to gain but nev’r tall,
and we used to think we’d have it all.

In a sense, nothing was lost…
Why should hearts break for ghosts?

That’s what you were then…
For when we pass’d one another,
It’s like walking through Wind,
Just for calling differences – sin

But I hope you know it’s true…
about what I said was truth.

That I can see what you see, hear what you hear.
And deep down inside, it’s the truth you fear.

Or maybe I’m just naive,
and reality is how you perceive.
but we are two and one’s a fool….

….I know I am no fool.

So check your sight,why lose might?
Over an illusion of insecurities,
and blaming it on trivialities.
Framing up blinded seconds,
and making it last for eternity.

Mine comes from the heart,
from time you’d know
this much is as so
Remember.Always.That…
come what may, it will not sway.

Then again…..
I am no fool.
And I choose what lesser men won’t do.
And all’s well that ends well,
no thanks to you.

Euqinu

Like animals. Preferably in herds to counter insecurities? Perhaps loneliness comes easily? or maybe it’s just preference. Oooor maybe it’s just learned that herds are winners and not so loses. Perhaps it’s time to consider that the opposite can also happen because of preference~?

Hah, there’s a good reason history or mystory is as it is. It’s not as if I don’t know, it’s more like it’s because I know that I have to seem like I don’t. OOhh how I wish I could find one who equals me, not in a sense that we are superior, more so that we are all ourselves but; we are similar.

As time and time repeats and as I am I and who knows better than I, that there is in a confined reality no existence that comes close to mine, not to mean I’m special but I’d just like to encounter a dreamer with the same dreams. The thing is I being me, am pretty much weird in every possible sense. Ahhh, a great chance to apologize to everybody for talking and laughing to myself, staring at the opposite direction when conversing and mostly blocking out everything when it’s convenient. The strangest I gather would be imagining completely ridiculous and I’ll admit rather obtuse scenarios and observations. Often there are shareable ones and then there are rather private or esoteric or sometimes cynical ones that I forget later anyways.

So in a naive sense, since I’m too young to make life decisions that affect the rest, I’d like to apologize and forgive myself for feeling deep down that nosoul shall ever see mine.

Needless to say, I pray one day God will prove me wrong? =)

-Max